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God bless you Sis, when i am there, i also look at my blessings, am alive with two handsome brilliant boys, a husband that loves me despite all my short comings, a loving and supportive family, a friend that is more than a sister, loving and supportive Church members, peace all around oh my God my list is endless thank you Lord
Keep that list growing! You never know when you simply need to pull it out and remind yourself. Thanks for reading!
Wonderful Bethany! I am clean and sober 14 1/2 years. I would love to tell you one day I woke up, decided it was time to stop the insanity and just not use again. But I would be lying! I started my journey to try and get sober May 6, 1990 but dint actually get clean and sober until Feb 27′, 2000. Several months after this last time I had had enough I was hit with a craving so strong I could barely think of anything else. I was working as a medical office manager and it was interfering withmy ability to do my job, this craving was THAT strong. There was a drug/liguor store up the street. Yes, the same store that sold prescriptions was also a liquor store. But I remembered what an ‘old timer’ said time and time again in a 12 step meeting. He would say “A grateful alcoholic will not drink”. So, I began to list in my head everything I was grateful for. It got real specific. I woke up, I had a job, I had food and eventually I ran out of the obvious and started thanking God for the stapler, paper clips, each patient that came in, as I drove to my second drive I thanked God for the mom’s I saw with their children, that I had a car. I just kept listing things I was grateful for. When I was working my 2nd job I suddenly realized that I no longer wanted to drink. I felt so free. Gratitude kept me sober. I could not wait to get to that 12 step meeting that night to tell the ‘old timer’ that he had kept me sober that day and when I did he said I didn’t so it, you did it with a change of your stinkin thinkin. He was right! There are a lot of things we have no control over but our focus and attitudes surely are things we can change!
Love you sweet sister! As a woman living with disabilities I am really looking forward to your next four blogs!!
One of the biggest blessings I get to look forward to are the comments on each post…especially yours Nancy! I hear your voice! You have such a great story to tell!