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As we continue with our February “Love More” emphasis, you know I thrive by allowing myself to be real and vulnerable on this blog. Shame is a word and a topic that takes so much value away from us in this life. I wanted to share a tiny glimpse into a moment of my journey when God really made Himself known to me any my struggle with shame. It’s not a story I share very often, but I felt led to share here, with you sweet friends and right now. Let’s allow God to truly remove shame from our names as we continue this Love More journey together.
My heart sank deep into my chest as I reached for the pen to sign my name on the final blurred line. With my other hand, I shifted the IV cord dangling from my wrist, nestled in the warm hospital blanket. I never imagined we would be selling the house of our dreams while I recovered from a stroke. I had just lost my job and my husband was forced to quit nursing school to find income for our family. Signing my name permanently shut the door on our family dream for independence and security.
My teeth clenched as my eyes coped to focus. I slowly wrote out each letter: “B, e, t, h, a, n, y.” As my pen curved the end of my “y”, my lip began to quiver. I fought back the tears desperately as I used every ounce of effort I had, to quickly scribble out the letters of my last name. The mountain of papers showcasing my countless attempts at a well-crafted signature was piled neatly and finally complete. The sighs of relief seemed to ease the tension of everyone in the crowded recovery room. Slowly, the realtor, attorney, clerk, and eventually my husband filed out of the door beside my hospital bed, leaving me alone with the pen still nestled in my hand.
My signature stripped my husband and I from a place we had worked so hard to make a home. My name took away comfort and certainty from our five-year-old, three-year-old and four-month-old boys. Alone and desperate, I began to question the pain my name had just caused:
Bethany is at fault.
Bethany is the reason life is hard.
Bethany is hurting our family.
Bethany is a failure.
At that moment, I needed God to remove the shame from my name. I needed to know desperately that He saw me, Bethany, in an empty hospital room, attached to cords and far away from the ones who called me “mom.” I, Bethany, needed the God Who controlled the universe to simply acknowledge that He noticed my uncontrollable pain.
As a warm tear trickled down my cheek, I reached for a sheet of paper. With my Bible placed on my lap, I began writing the verse I sang to my boys at bedtime each evening. To my surprise, my pen moved as if it knew exactly the words to write. My jaw dropped as my heart beat with each word I read back. Without any struggle, I had signed my name just before writing the verse: “Bethany, have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9 New International Version).
Each word sang over me as God Himself invaded my hospital room of despair. His Words rushed into the fear that had me paralyzed and awakened the heart of the faith-warrior within me. My God had called me, Bethany, by my name.
He told me that I, Bethany, was on a mission.
My pain had a purpose and my Savior was right by my side.
Our house was gone but He would help us make a new home for our family again.
My perspective changed when God placed His Truth next to my name.
That day, I began a list of personalized Bible verses. Over four years later, I have a growing arsenal of over 300 personalized verses, tagged and ready in my Evernote app. Each passage has a testimony attached that showcases how God moved in a powerful way in my life through His Word. In my home, I know that life is far from perfect. But God has a Word and a Promise that will meet every need I will ever have. I know, because He tells me personally every single day.
Our names deserve His Truth. As Daughters of the King, we are always invited to crawl up on God’s lap as He speaks His truth into our hearts. With every heartbeat, you are seen, you are valued, and you are loved. May we daily have the courage to live out the name He proudly calls us; we are unashamed to be His.
Dare to do more than just survive, step out and thrive!
What role has shame played in your life? How do you combat the lies in your head?
Hello and welcome to Step Out And Thrive Ministries! My name is Bethany Boring and I am proud to be called a child of God before any other title or role. I am a mom to 3 amazing boys. I enjoy writing for this Step Out And Thrive community and walking with you as we venture through the ups and downs of life together. I am an ICF trained Certified Professional Christian Life Coach (Christian Coach Institute Graduate), Motivational and Inspirational Speaker, mentor, Certified Human Behavioral Consultant (DISC Personality) and an author. As always - dare to do more than just survive, step out and thrive!